Shom Jr.

2008-02-22T05:00:00.000-08:00

I'm feeling lost now?...

cause todays the day that i feel its the worse day of my life.
it just sucks till it hurts me...
i dont know why...
it is just misery that is setting all time high..
but i just wanna

Throw it away whatever that you are thinking
Forget yesterday and just be free
Cos' We'll make the great escape
And We wont hear a word they say
Cos' They don't know us anyway
And lets just Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just feel like shouting my lungs out.
are u like avoiding or me or something.
i don't know..its just my gut feeling that you are..

thats it.
i'm done here.
bye.
i can't stop thinking bout you.
so yah,
bye everyone
i'll be dead and you'll still not know.

written by:Mr Rill
mood while blogging:frustrated.

2008-02-08T16:02:00.000-08:00

If you are reading this,
this song below has the meaning
of how much u now mean to me.
i hope u understand.

Chris brown-With You
I need ya boo, I gotta see ya boo
And there's hearts all over the world tonite
Said there's hearts all over the world tonite
I need ya boo {Oh}, I gotta see ya boo {Yeah}
And there's hearts all over the world tonite
Said there's hearts all over the world tonite

Hey lil mama... Ooo your a stunner
Hot lil figure, Yes you a winner
And, I'm so glad to be yours...
Your a class all your own and...
Ooo you a cutie, When you talk to me
I swear the whole world stops
Your my sweetheart, and I'm so glad that your mine
You are one of a kind and
You mean to me, What I mean to you
And together baby, there is nothin' we wont do

Cuz if I got you
I don't need money
I don't need cars
Girl your my all.....
And oh

I'm into you, and girl no.. one else but you and
With every kiss and every hug, you make me fall in love
And now I, know I cant be the only one
I bet its hearts all over the world tonite
With the love of there life would feel
What I feel when im

with you, with you, with you, with you, with you
Girl... with you, with you,
with you, with you, with you

Oh Girl
I don't want nobody else
Without you there's no one left and
Be like Jordans on Saturday
I gotta have you and I can not wait now

Hey lil shorty, say you care for me
You know, I care for you
You know, that I'll be true
You know, that I wont lie
You know, that I would try
To be your everything, yeah

Cuz if I got you
I don't need money
I don't need cars
Girl your my all.....{Yeah}
And oooohhhh

I'm into you, and girl noo.. one else but you and
With every kiss and every hug, you make me fall in love
And now I know I cant be the only one
I bet its hearts all over the world tonite
With the love of there life would feel
What I feel when I'm
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you
Ooh.. with you, with you, with you, with you, with you {Yeah}

And I, will never try to deny
That you were my whole life
Cuz if you, Ever let me go
I would die, So I wont front
I dont need another woman
I just need your all or nothing,
Cuz if I got that, Then i'll be straight
Baby your the best part of my dreams

I need ya boo, I gotta see ya boo
And there's hearts all over the world tonite
Said there's hearts all over the world tonite {oooh, yeah}
They need their boo {They need it}, They gotta see their boo {Yeah}
And there's hearts all over the world tonite
Hearts all over the world tonite

Ohh..
I'm into you, and girl noo.. one else but you and
With every kiss and every hug, you make me fall in love
And now I, kno I cant be the only one
I bet its hearts all over the world tonite
With the love of there life would feel
What I feel when I'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you

Girl... with you, with you, with you, with you, with you
Ohh.. with you, with you, with you, with you, with you {with you}
Only with you... with you, with you, with you, with you, with you

2008-02-07T18:34:00.000-08:00

hmm...
i don't know where to start..
its just that alot has been going in my life..
from..school...my volunteer thingy..and finally my private life..
but what hit me the most this time was my private life.
this girl i know.
she is very sweet.
very caring.
and she is a very understanding girl.
even though i've like known her like less than a month.
i feel.........
i know inside me says that i do like her..
but i just feel its wring to tell her..
cos she is in her prime where..she has alot in her life and she has goals to achieve..
what i mean is that she just have alot of things to do and she has her prioraties
im just falling for her more and more,
and i just can't stop thinking bout her.

to her:
hey baby,
i'm falling for you.
and if you have other things in your life,
i'll wait for you.
i'll do anything to make you happy
i'm just so confused..
so i think maybe i'll need to talk it out.

rill,

2007-11-22T14:42:00.000-08:00

I'm BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hello to u guys who have visited my boring blog...

gosh it's been a very long time since i blog.

oh well,it was really because i was very tied up with events for m volunteer assc and also with my school.
school has been the same but very tough cos of MATH!!! argh!!!...

don't get me wrong...i like math but the workload has been piling on top of my table..

to those finish their o levels good luck for your results.

and im having this module called "Entrepreneurship" and i'm having lots of problem with communicating with my group.And i feel so drained by all this work..

But then there are a group of people who is helping me to relax...

my volunteer group..from 4PM(malay youth literary assc.)

going out with them makes me happy..cos everyone of them has something different about themself.

some recent events that i was in was the Bestari ITE award ceremony,Night Cyling and most recent was Camp Voyage 07'..and the best of all R.O.W.(ramadhan on wheels)

through this events i get to know alot of people...

hopefully insyallah..in the future i'll get to know more people..

speaking bout people...among this people...i found 1 that has become my special one..

she and i really come from two different worlds..hahaha

funny but true,

she come from a religious school and i come from a normal sch...

she lives in pasir ris and i'm from jurong(man how far is that...)

and if i were to list down the other things that are different think this blog spce wouldn't be enough...
ok.

enough talking...here are just some pics from my volunteer group..enjoy..

RILL

2007-08-14T05:36:00.000-07:00

HOLD ON,

she thinks that i told my bro's something and she wants to knw what did i told them

cause she notice something amiss during national day...

haiz..

YES! i did told them something but its just tht i think its not the right time to tell u..

so i'll keep to myself till i think its right to tell u..

i hope u won't get mad with me cause i respect u..and i don't want to distract u with the thing that i'm goin to tell u..

so jus be patient aite..

another reason is because..

i knw u have alot of probs..so i don't want the thing that i wnat to tell u will add more probs to ur life.

aku mahu bilang kamu

tapi enggak boleh karena..

belum tepat masanya untok membilang kamu.

aku harap kamu akan paham akan presaan aku nanti..

if some of u guys don't understand what i'm talking,nevermind..

it was suppose to be like that..

till then guys...

Rill

tetapi sebenarnya...aku amat cinta banget sama kamu... -_-

2007-08-03T02:50:00.000-07:00

SCHOOL...urgh...the thought of it sometimes makes me sick..
i'm rite now so confused with the AC current thingy so many formula to remember...
but i still have to catch up some how...
5 more weeks till my exam..
so my theory test not tht bad..
my phase test is so fine tht i can close one eye already..
but the other half my theory i really have to work hard..gosh.
and all this things has made me really sick..(sore throat and flu)

today not goin to work cause i have a basic theory prac and evaluation from 6 to 745pm
and with me this sick...things not gonna be tht easy to take tht evaluation...
but on a lighter note my team won third yesterday in our annual EE dept soccer league for o7'

now my private life..
nothing has been goin much but seriously i feel like telling her abt my feelings for her
she has really no clue abt my feelings for her..
i tried my best to ask her out on a date so tht i could talk to her abt this face to face..
cos i think if i told her through text i wouldnt be tht sincere as for me talking to her face 2 face..
i really hope tht(my heart is pumping so hard rite now while typing this) one i could be with her
cause my feelings for her has change from
jus liking a fren,to loving a fren to loving her more than a fren
so rite now i dont knw what else to do but to just wait till her exams are over and maybe
i'll get to sit down and talk to her..
a clue who she is. (clue: CGSS)
thts enough till then guys

RILL

2007-07-20T19:59:00.000-07:00

have u ever sit down and just think.

and while u were thinking,there's only that one person in your mind.

then after that u feel a tingling feeling in your heart about this person.

u ask yourself alot of question about this person.

And the one main question "Why do i always think about this girl?"

well,thats exactly what i'm feeling rite now.

i knw she's not reading this so thats y i wrote it here.

I've only met her once,tried to meet up again but then had things to do so cant.

well the truth is that i think i'm jus waiting for her and that even though i admit there are some other girls that i knw who are just as gorgeous as she is.

i think she has that something bout her that made me want her.

well, i think i'll just wait for her then.

no matter what happen's.

i'll still be her friend.(even if i went on one knee down)

enough bout tht,

my sch grade as of rite now is a cnfrm B or C grade.

damn it man.

jus cause i didnt attend one lesson to finish up my report.

my CA didnt want to accept my bloody report.

it SUCKS! man i tell u.

nvr mind..

i'll jus have to work harder on my other test and just hope i pass them with flying colours.

ok guys,thats it for now.

till then,

RIll

2007-07-04T20:35:00.000-07:00

this was wat happen during camp..to all u guys who went to the camp..all the best in wat u all are doing aite.Peace.Save our Planet!

2007-07-03T23:52:00.000-07:00

This were some pics of the camp tht i just went through,
this camp change me alot.
So i hope u guys like it!

Frontier's Enterprise

The BEST GROUP of 07' Intergration camp

Me working to break out of camp..haha

(designing group flag actually)

Frontier's and Spartan's

My very crazy committee

Best male and Female camper of 07' Integration camp
Me and Suria

The prizes tht we won as a group

(my B.M.C. thorpy wasnt there)

2007-07-03T05:47:00.000-07:00

hello guys...

im back from camp,

for u guys who watch suria's berita at 8 yesterday,u may have seen my face,

then today berita harian also got my bloody face,hahaha..

actually it was because my team had won champion for 07' bestari ITE(bITE)

let me tell u abt the whole camp,

the first day was already very fun,

of course at first u meet people whom u dont knw,

but then by the first nite of the camp,

we were already friends as if we were friends for years,

my group name was Frontier's Enterprise.

so yah,

for 2 days and 2nights to just brush up and polish up our presentation on the third day of camp

so on the third day of camp,

it was our audition prensentation day,

we did our last check on the presentation and we got through it..

so finally we were in the top 5,

also on the last night of camp.

my team and i got a big suprise,

my team won the best group in the camp,

when our team was announce,we were like slow to react..haha

it was very funny sia.

and for me,i won the best male camper(wwooohhoo!!)

at tht point of time i was so not concentrating on the announcement,

i was more of thinking to go to toilet rahther than receiving the prize.haha

i was really suprise to get tht award.

to those faci's who supportted me to be best male camper,

i thank u so much..

as an appriciation to u all,

i'll be joining 4PM as a volunteer aite.

finally on the last day of camp,

it was the presentation time,

during rehearsal time,i totally screwed up the whole thing,

but then me and my frens cahnge our strategy for the presentation

and when during the real presentation,it all work out jus fine..

well..actually

more than jus fine,

it went superbly well..

haiz..in the end,

everything tht has a beginning,has an end.

so at last everything ended.

i was very happy indeed to have attended the camp,

hope fully next year i'll be there again,

so thts all i have to say for the camp,

haiz..i'm just thinking of her alot lately this few weeks,

haiz..i dont knw whether she reads this well,who cares right..

nobody cares actually..

its only me who knws what im feeling

ok,tht it for now...i'll update more ok..

Rill

2007-06-23T05:38:00.000-07:00

Alrite people!

i gotta admit it...i cant live without working PT...haiz..

to guys from earle's...sorry,but i wont join earle's back..cause its too far...

im now working at Secret Recipe at IMM...so any of u guys who knw..jus drop by aite..

This whole week has been very hectic for me..

especially with training...haiz...its tough i tell u..even tougher than playing soccer..

i jus feel tht i'm one of the worst there...

but the gud thing is...i've been promoted to 50m range..

words can be decieving...but i tell u its very hard for to shoot cause of my low poundage(meaning:go read my previous post)

haiz..among the 9 person there...my score is the lowest...not even reach hundred..

but on my last shooting end just now...i got three 8pointer,one 3pointer and two misses.

i knw it sounds bad...bt tht is the best shooting end i shot ever..

yesterday i started work...

place ok,

workmate alright,

manager ok,

everything was ok...except for some things tht i couldnt compare with swensen..

ok enough of work.

also this week,

i nvr msg her at all...only today she got my msg..

but haiya..nvm...

seriously...i am just starting to miss her and all tht..

but im trying to control it as much as i can..

haiya..its hard for me to explain..so this will explain everything.

Baby,i will wait for u,

cause i dont knw what else i can do,

dont tell me i ran out of time,

if it takes the rest of my life,

Baby i will wait for u,

if u think finding it just ain't true,

i really need u in my life,

no matter what i have to do,

i'll wait for u

so yah...this what im feeling rite now,(i hope u read this)

Rill(i wanna watch TRANSFORMERS!!!)

2007-06-20T11:25:00.000-07:00

hmm....where shud i start..
well this few days has been very hectic with my training and all tht..
except for yesterday,
damn!i hate my aiming yesterday..hahaha..
i spoiled 1 of my arrows..(1 has already been bend,so tht makes it two arrow)
haiz..
now..my poundage of my bow has been decrease from 30pounds to 28 pounds..
like?wth?
poundage means,the weight of the whole bow...so..the heavier it is..the better it is..
well..nvm bout tht..
argh..next week is my integration camp,and i didnt go for the bloody briefing cause i wasnt told bout it.
so this friday i'll be meeting up wth my team members to do something..
then...also..this saturday is my very best fren bdae!!!

To MISS RYNNY:Happy Birthday My fren!!!!!!!!!!!
at last you're 18...hahaha...but still height wise..u still lacking in it...hahaaha(joking aite!)
so i wish u:may al ur hope and dream will come true k...sayang ko...bnyk2...haha.

ok guys...i tink dats all for now...
see ya..

Rill
(P.S. To tht girl whom i jus knw..if u have any probs..u cn really come to me and talk bout it..cause it wont be a trouble to me k..)

2007-06-15T21:15:00.000-07:00

haiz....im updating again...

some guys complain tht i dont update often enough..

im gonna try next three week ok guys...

hmm....where shud i start..

well to start off this week was the last week of sch...which kinda good news..

but still i have to revise some topics though..

sch has been great but sometimes stressfull cause of diff type of learning.

ITE is not tht easy after all..

the speed of learning is damn fast..

but i must say..ITE has open up alot for me..

i've been elected to become asst class rep.

a project manager for one of my modules,

selected to go for a leadership camp end of this june(which only 5 pupils frm dover get to go)

and get to knw companies tht is specialise in electrical dept..

i'm bless i tell ya..

bless for having another chance to learn again new things..

well recently this week...i got to knw someone new..

where or how i meet her..i shall nt tell u..

she is very clever..

very kind,

very down to earth,

super understanding,

very glamorous,

very sweet(although she likes salty popcorn),

very much just right for the kind of girl im looking for..

but i dont want to go for a relantionship rite now,

cause she is having her o levels and i have also many things to do..

so im jus afraid tht things might not work out if i go 4 it now..

but jus yesterday i got to knw sumtink..

tht she gonna leave spore if she gets a scholarship,

haiz...im neither sad or happy.

cause everytime i meet a gerl whom i tink fits for me and understand me and all dat..

there be jus sumtink tht will take her away from me..

ya i knw i talk as if she is my gerl..

im jus saying this cause im following my heart to say wat i want on my bloggy..

the truth is...i tink im falling for her more and more each day..

and each day i cant help tinking bout her..haiz..

y does life have to be so complicated..

to tht gerl..

i jus wanna say tht..

if u are gonna go overseas..

i really want u to stay rather than u go..

cause of rite now,u mean so much to me..

alrite guys stop there for now,

here's wat a survey on personal value profile tell u all abt my leadership

At a Glance,

Punstual,completes work on time.
Expresses emotion and needs attetion.Tends to be concerned wif own opinions and feelings
Outgoing and likes the company of people.
Faithful,trustworthy and devoted in long-term relationships(i like this the most..haha)
Does not seek positions of power or authority
Not concerned wif rank,title or position
Sees people as nice and friendly,not comfortable to wheel and deal
Less incline of decide how and wats needs to be done ahead of schedule.
Less expressive verbally
Needs clear and thorough instructions,slow to act when uncertain

that all for now guys..

RILL

2007-05-19T22:37:00.000-07:00

hahaha...

finally i get to update my blog..
sorry guys..
was jus too lazy and tired to blog..
busy wif school tht is..
my gosh..its already been five weeks in school...but it feels like it was yesterday when i
step into ITE.
life has been different,
different frens,
different enviroment,
almost everything was different except for the learning part..
because im studying electrical engineering
so im studying more on resistor and all tht stuff
and recently..i got to knw tht nex term im gonna learn on A and E math..
my god!!
math!!!!!urgh!!!!!i hate but i gotta love it..
haiz..
as for CCA i join three CCA,
fitness club,
ARCHERY
and soccer(cnfrm no hope on this cca)
enough on my school life..
life as a single is great..
but sumtimes i jus feel lonely wif out a somebody..
nvm...i knw i'll find tht somebody again
i tink thts all for now guys..tag me up aite!..
bye!

RILL

2007-04-03T11:24:00.000-07:00

3rd APRIL TODAY..

hi guys..its been a long time since i blog..
make the word "long" abit draggy aite..
well aniwaes..its my birthday today!
i'm 18..
tell u the truth i don feel anitink..yesterday nite got a few
advance bdae wishes and i watch the whole dvd of THE DEPARTED
thts about it..

well yesterday i also thought of wats gonna happen this comin year..
i'm a year older and a year wiser i guess..
but wat i knw..i feel abit morew mature..hahaha..
yes i feel tht way..
cause watever happened to me in the past year has taught me alot of things..
and for all the ppl i have done u wrong..
i jus wanna say i'm sorry..for all the bad things i have done to u..
and hope tht u will forgive me..
haha..but also..i feel abit old when someone called me 18..

wat am i goin to do today is..
to myself a new mp4
get a watch..and on friday im goin out wif a fren..hahaha
but sumtimes being 18 also is good..u can finally watch the M18 shows..hahaha
and also..im gonna get my license..both motorbike and car..(car dad gonna supply the money i guess..and motorbike..i fork out my own..)
wwoohhooo!!!
ok thts all guys...
see ya!

SHAHRILL

2007-03-20T22:02:00.000-07:00

haiz..i figure out no use tinkin bout the past..if god wants us to be togeda..
then by now we shud have been togeda but instead..
nvm..
rite now i am jus trying to adapt my new life..
in ITE simei..
jus now went there to pay the fees..
the place is super duper big..
my mind has already set in ITE
i don mind being in there cause its really up to the individual to choose
like i said to my parents..
ten years from now im goin to have my own company..
yes..thts my dream now..

yesterday work was really boring
but during the last 1 hour plus..i went inside FOUNTAIN
woohhoo!!!
3rd april(my BDAE) will the first day of trainin..
finally man...
its a big task but i knw i can handle it..
yesterday help dennis in fountain
made:
-fondue
-SCC sundae
-milkshake
-milkshake float
and choc float
PPL...
if u tink scooping ice cream is easy..
tink again..
its really really hard cause the damn ice cream is SUPER hard..
yesterday i was also stress cause
my supervisor(yan) kept checkin on me..
i forgot every recipe i studied..hahaha
lucky got dennis to help me out..
ended at 9 yesterday..

went home,
text msg sumone till late nite..
got to knw tht she damn clever..
take 3rd lang some more..
if tht person is readin this..
i jus wanna tell u sumtink..
u are a really bubbly gerl..
hahaha..but u are very down to earth..
thts all guys..till nex time..

SHAHRILL

2007-03-16T21:00:00.000-07:00

i'm just here,
thinking bout u,
can't get u out of my head,
and i jus don't knw y,
y do i have feelings for u which are..
much stronger than other girls,

right now,
feeling so useless without u,
feeling alone,
feeling frustrated with myself after what i had done,
feeling like "urgh!!!why did i do it!?"

but all of tht is useless right now,
nothing can change the past,
all i can do rite now is to just wait for u,
i dont knw whether have forgiven me,
but what i think i knw is,
tht u already have sumone else in mind,
and i hope is tht u be happy wif him,
i'm not angry with u,
but instead i'm more angry with myself,

so,
i just wanna say again,
i'm sorry(on my knees),
and tht i'm still in love wif u thts all,
i really do

SHAHRILL

2007-03-13T22:45:00.000-07:00

My advice to guys out there who are having a relationship wif someone u patch up wif..

DO NOT TRUST THEM AT ALL!!!

For all u knw..they might do the things they did to u before..

especially the bad ones..

f**k to all the girls who have broken the hearts of guys

who really cared,appreciate,love and did everything possible for u

(to girls who are reading this especially to my frens..no offense ok

To:the girl i thought u have change

u made tink tht u have really change,

all those words tht came out of your mouth were all bullshit..

i was a fool to belive in wat u said,

i never thought u would do this again

why cant u jus tell me tht u were in love wif sumone else.

as easy as tht,

i would jus leave u alone..i don understand u have hurt me again and again

wat did i do to make u treat me this way..

seriously,i'm jus pissed off wif ur attitude..

u tink im a toy tht u cn jus pick and throw away anytime u want

f**k i tell u

to my frens out there if todae i act like a fucker

its because of a girl who played wif my heart

and i hate it..

PS:to guys out there,its hard to find a girl who will really luv u

2007-03-01T23:29:00.000-08:00

My plans!!!

lets talk bout wat happen yesterday a lil bit..

met her very late cause she was held up at skool..

i was a little piss off but i didnt mind..cause it was nt her fault

how she look?

she look abit fat hahaha...seriously

maybe cause it was a really long time since i saw her outside..

reach vivo around 7+...bought the tix for 920pm show..

so had some time to eat..

ate at FIg and olive..hahaha

met up wif mkck pendek..was cheeky enough for discount..ahaha

after that watch the movie and went bck straight home...

ghost rider rating from 1-10(10 meanin very good,1 meanin very boring)

i give a 6 cause apart from the action,which was great with all the fire and all tht..

the script made it look boring...

next 2 week plans:

7 march=> testimonial match and BB outing..

16march=>gig at hua yi sec

the rest of the weeks..i seriously dont knw wat to do..

i wanna go do some shopping again but my budget has run out..so next mnth..

i gonna buy some more things..

bought a FOX sweater and a pair of NIKE sneakers..

hmm..i tink dats all for now..

goin to work later..meeting ann2 again..woohoo..cn "bully" her hahha..

i tink gonna be runner again..haiz..dead bored..

but today gonna expect some crowd..so its not gonna be so bored..

bye everybody..

and to her..i had fun last nite..i hope u had too..let go out some time again k..

SHAHRILL

2007-02-26T12:19:00.000-08:00

I'm Back Guys!!!!!!!!!

alot of things have been going around..even i dont knw where to start..

hahahaha..this few days im jus feeling very happy..

which is a good thing..

im over her,

and jus living my life as happy as i can..

but rite now im worried bout my posting to which school i'll be goin too..

working life rite now seems great but alot of probs have been coming up..

sometimes i jus seem not to be bother by them..

nvm bout those stupid things..

rite now im looking forward to my outing wif my fren this thursday..

hahahaha

haiyo..dont knw wat to write animore..tomorrow will update again..

bye!

SHAHRILL

2007-02-09T09:51:00.000-08:00

todays the big day...

i'm a little worried...

but at the same time..

im jus happy tht i don have to tink muxh animore..

now i jus have to think wat will happen after i get my results..

so..

here's the plan..its simple..

if my math grade is nt tht good..then i jus go for higher nitec.and retake my mathy again

if not..then i'll opt for poly then..

simple rite???

hahahaha...

but lately..seriously..i dont y..

i been thinking of u even more..

and im not liking the way tht its goin..

i'm trying to forget about my feelings bout u..but..damn it i cant..

haiz..i talk about this to a fren..and she said tht..jus take it as per normal..

i'll try.. =(

im jus not happy rite now..

im feeling very empty inside..tht's all..

SHAHRILL

2007-02-05T18:47:00.000-08:00

hmmm.....

yesterday and today is my off day but this week i'll be working for 6 days straight....

haiz..boring!!!!!!!!

yesterday ended at good note though..singapore won the AFC cup yesaterday..

man..i tell u..tackles were flying from all sorts of angles...

but in the end..the cool headed ones will always win..

haiz..i really dont wat to blog actually..

so far all the problem tht i have..have faded a little bit..

im jus here reminiscing...alot goin through my mind..

and i jus don knw y...

haiz...nvm..

i don care animore..

all i have to do now is thinking bout my reults..damn it..

i seriously dont knw when tht bloody thing is goin to come out...

ok bye..thts all...

shahrill

2007-02-03T09:42:00.000-08:00

haiz...damn tired today...
drag myself out of bed to get to work..
yesterday reach home at around 12am..
hehehehe...my parent didnt ask me where did i go so i'll jus keep quiet..
treated al,ryn and sarah again at SEOUL GARDEN..
the price tag for four person eating there..hmm..better not tell..
reach at TAKA around 6pm..
we ate a damn lot..hahaha...
but the funny thing was tht we didnt talk much..
dont knw y..
then after we ate all the meaty stuff..
MR AL had a great idea..haha..melt the ice cream in the hot pan..
the two ladies follow his great idea..but i didnt cause i was just too full..
then after eating...we chill at starbucks..
miss sarah treat us this time round..
we had a LONG talk..didnt we?
but at least i knw wats on this guys mind a little bit..hahaha...
jus like yesterday,im jus asking..
whether would u still wanna giv me your number..
but u still said as usual..dat u dont knw..haiyo...u ah...
aku tau dat ko masih feel irritated...and dat aku masih belom dapat make up to my mistake..
sekali lagi..aku mintak maaf ok...
aku nk kn nombor ko because jus untk contact jek..bukannye nk try tackle ko lagi..
like i said yesterday...aku cumer nk kawn aje..and tht's the truth..
so....FRENS?(i hold out my hand to shake hands..)

shahrill

2007-01-30T19:56:00.000-08:00

to-you-know-who

ok2..i knw tht i made a big fuss out of it..ok..im jus sorry..

wat i'm telling u on this blog is the truth..

i knw that u do not have the same feeling as me..

but really..i jus want to friends..dats all..

abt the 'babygerl' thingy..she already has a BF

so wats the use of gettin her back..

ok i knw u have the right..and im sorry..

i knw u wont forgive me tht easily..

so thts y i ask u wat can i do to make up for my mistake...

and if i really made your life difficult..im sorry..

i knw its totally my FAULT..im sorry

i know it was childish of me..

i know i made your life miserable..

and tht there is nothing i can do..

and i jus wanna knw..who i said tht i was jus trying to get a new one to mend my broken heart..

tht is totally bullshit..

it never ever cross my mind..

i knw wat im saying..u may not or may belive..its really up to u..

i cant force u or anitink rite..

lastly..i jus wanna say tht im jus really sorry for i have done..

and really i jus wanna be friends wif u...

IM SORRY..

SHAHRILL

2007-01-29T12:15:00.000-08:00

ARGHH!!!!

yeaterday at work was fucking stressful..

my minf was'nt totally focused on my work firstly,

did not have enough sleep,

then played soccer in the morning..then

straight to work,

at work..there even more problems..

i knw SHE is gonna read..so i jus wanna tell U..

i jus dont knw wat did i do to make u to avoid me..

yes avoid me...

yes..u knw dat i got a crush on u..so wat!

i didnt force u to have a relationship wif me wat..

i jus want us to be frens..dats all..

is tt too much to ask..

if really wanna avoid me..and u jus hate me that much..

JUS TELL ME OK!!

last time i thought that u were the type of person whom i can tell u bout my probs..

cause when i got to knw u..

our relationship probs..were similar..

haiz..i jus dont knw wat more to say to u..

i have let it out all my feelings on my blog..

so its up to u...

bye!

SHAHRILL

2007-01-26T17:11:00.000-08:00

FUCK,FUCK,FUCK!!!!!!!!!

This past few days has been fucking shit i tell ya..

if u dont want me to text u or anitink jus tell me la...

dont jus keep quiet..

i hate it when girls do that..

it doesnt meAN THAT I HAte u..but jus tink for a moment..

wat do u feel when u sent ten text out to that person..

and that person didnt even reply one of ur text msg...

im trying to be patient but i tink my patience has a limit too..

im nt trying to force on a relationship or anitink..

i jus wanna be frens..thats all..

argh!!!!too much inside my mind...GOODBYE!

shahrill

2007-01-25T12:09:00.000-08:00

well,well,well..
yesterday was a boring day..but not until i went to work..
haha..
i sometimes jus love to go to work..
i knw there some people who dont..hahaha..
well yesterday counted the number of hours at work..altogether..
i have work around 90.5 hours.
so my pay shud be abt $443.25..
woohoo..
end of this month gonna get the adidas shoe
treat al and ryn..and maybe she again..if she wanna follow us..
ryn..u get yur wish..im gonna treat u guys at SEOUL GARDEN ALRITE..
im having the time of my life rite now.
but also at the same time...the freaking results are coming up..hahahahaiaz....
well i tried msging her but she never replied..
maybe its her bill thats racking up all the way to the sky.
but when i wanna call her...i feel abit guilty.
and im now starting to hate ppl making up stories abt us..when there is
totally nothing between us..
so stop making up stories guys!
ok i'm done,
SHAhrill

2007-01-24T11:43:00.000-08:00

hmm..yesterday was great day for me..hahaha

got to change shift wif my fren for a morning shift..

was jus too lazy to do closin..

also beacuase supposely i had a gathering but did'nt go cause

my parent could not make it..
so planned wif miss sarah to treat her..
haha..she is a very fickled minded person sumtimes..
cause ask i her where she want to eat..

she will always ans.."don't knw..anywhere la.."

haha..sorry ehk sarah i mengumpat psl u skit je..haha

but the worse has yet to come..

hahah

everybody tinks dat its was a date..haha

everybody meaning staff of swensen and al,ryn

and everybody who knew dat i was treating her..

come on!its was jus a treat..not a date..right sarah?

i knw she will agree wif me..haha

but also while waiting for sarah..met up wif my bros..

they were hanging out at vivo on a tuesday for whoknowsWat they there for..

haha..

eating at BREEKS cafe was ok..

i still prefer secret recipe though..haha

she had fish&chips and i had pasta wif blacken fish..

it was nice..

it was nice having the meal wif u

cause day by day..

i dont knw y..

i jus got this feeling that im closer to u..

maybe its jus..entalah..i also dont knw wat the feeeling is..

cause im happy when im wif u..

dats all guys,

Shahrill

2007-01-21T21:38:00.000-08:00

WOOOHHHOOO!!!!!!!!!!
finally i got a new phone..
guess which one..
its the nokia 6288..haiz..
i knw alot of ppl using it but i like the design..
my dad bought it two days ago..
he went out of his room and said..
"nah..this is for u,"
i was totally shocked..haha
but i wanted the white one..
instead gt the black one..
NVM..im grateful..
my next pay is coming up..
woohoo again!!
hahaahaha things to do after i got my pay..
1)new adidas sneakers
2)two long sleeve shirt
3)jeans
4)treat my family again
5)go out and have LOADS OF FUN!!!!!!!
hahaaha...im crazy rite..
ppl are like so worried bout the o level results..
and im like feeling nothing..hahaha

this few days i jus gt a feeling
a feeling that u are avoiding me,
i dont knw wat i did to make u avoid me or anitink
but if u dont want me to text u or wateva..
jus tell me ok..
im not angry..
but im jus saying this thats all..

i dont want this feeling be a barrier to our frenship
cause your a masterpiece,
beautiful jus not for show..
its time that someone let u knw..

SHAHRILL

2007-01-18T00:35:00.000-08:00

i knw y..but i jus have a feeling

a feeling dat,

her heart may still be wif dat guy ,

so i dont knw whether i shud ask abt her feelings..

haiz..but i really miss her though..

i dont knw y..but i really do..

maybe because i have not cntact wif her this few days..

i knw she jus treat me like a fren..

so like i said..

i jus have to go wif the flow..haahaha..

jus now went to for interview with al and ryn at moley work place

al treated me and ryn at secret recipe..

the food was nice..and CHEAP

haha..

but at the end of the day i decided maybe rite now..i shud not change my job

cause i lovin it..hahaha..jus little bit though cause the management still sucks..

big time!

shud i change my job..nah..not for nw..

i knw u still cant forget bout him..

but i jus wann aask u.. isit worth it?

after all he had done to u..

im jus saying this..cause i dont want u to be hurt again

dats all folks

signing off

Shahrill aka SHOM JR.

2007-01-17T23:05:00.000-08:00

hmm..i dont knw wat to write abt actually..well
paying adult fare really sucks..
yesterday..went to visit my school for a while..
then met my wif my two bros,qiqi and khai..
went to queensway to check out our new jersey..
woohoo..it was pretty cool i tell ya..
then after tt went home..belanje si bdk duer tu(my bros) mkn mac..
suker dorg ehk biler aku blanjer..

i'm now really hoping to see yur face everyday

cause when i do..i feel happy..

maybe..i jus dont knw how to express it to u personally

cause i knw u still treat me as a fren rite..

for now i'll jus go wif the flow..

but i wat i hope in the future is..

wat im feeling for u rite nw..yours will be the same towards me(haha dream on shahrill!!..)

okok..dats all..

signing off

Shahrill aka SHOM JR.

2007-01-15T12:40:00.000-08:00

fooh...
im damn tired rite now..even though i slept for like 9 hours already..
hahaaha..
yeterday work was ok..
got a good feedbck from a customer..and they wanted to gave me tips but i decline cause
i could nt take it..
so i explain to the couple y i couldnt took the tips..
haiz..as day goes by..i luv the job but..
seriously..the pay sucks..so MAYBE...
im gonna change to another outlet..
im gonna try Secret Recipe..the pay is five bucks pre hour..
ok la..but i seriously dont knw wat to do..
haiz...

if i dont msg u,i feel lonely,

when i beside u,i feel happy,

i dont want us not to talk..

sorry if i was being ignorant the other day...

hahaaha,

so its was all jus a big misunderstanding rite..

i heard tt u wanna quit the job..

i dont knw wat to say to animore to change yur mind..

but i tink u knw wats best for yurself rite..

haiz..da plak akutk dpt nk tngk pompan cantek..

hahahahaha...

ok..dats all..

signing off

shahrill AKA shom jr.

2007-01-14T08:49:00.000-08:00

im tired..so no mood to blog..
2morrow mornig then i'll tell ya all wat happen k..bye

2007-01-13T04:42:00.000-08:00

haiz..another day huh..
i only got one thing to say about work today..
was tiring..
and was so fuck up wif my RM..
u wanna knw y..
then u come to me personally then u knw y..
hahaha..
dont knw wat to say..but there one ting..
wooooooohhhhoooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i got my pay already..yay!
but its my pay frm 12-31dec one..my current working pay..i will get it on 31 jan..
wwwooohoo..jus got to knw tt i'll be training for fountain after i take the test..
yay..
man..u knw wat..i'm tired..so don disturb me aite..
ok
bye!

singning off

Shahrill aka SHOM JR.

2007-01-13T01:02:00.000-08:00

jus got bck from work 1 hour ago.work two shift cause i cover for miss sarah who still a little bit sick.im so damn tired..cause for the first time this week swensen was full during dinner time..it was full house till abt 930..i was so busy..hahaha..but lunch time was better..from station 3 i went to ice cream runner..then serve the GM her drinks and was praise that i did a good job in serving her..woohoo..enough of working..but seriously i nid my DAMN PAY!!!!!!!!!!haha..and sarah...don worry..if u tink that by covering up for u..i will earn more..don worry cause i'll treat u after i got my pay ok..hopefully by next week..i will get it..its around 500+ only my pay..but im grateful for wat i have..

i don't knw y..
but lately..day by day,
i've been thinking bout u..
i don't y..
but i'm jus scared jus wanting to be close to u..
cause i jus don't want d ppl arnd us 2 get 2 knw bout us(if..)
every time i wanna text u..
i feel guilty..
everytime i wanna find u..you're nt there..
all this is jus making me,thinking bout u even more..
and i'm sori if its wrong..
so now..
i jus want u to knw..
dat
if there anitink i can do..
i'll be there for u..

Shahrill aka SHOM JR.

2007-01-10T22:39:00.000-08:00

"Far Away"
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,you know, you know
[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,you know, you know
[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted,I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me(TIMES 3)

to tht gerl,i knw u are like hating me rite now
i jus have the feeling tht u do,
this song lyrics is how i am feeling bout u rite now
hope we cn jus go on as per normal ok..
dats a wrap guys!!

signing off

Shahrill aka SHOM JR.

2007-01-10T13:41:00.000-08:00

hahaahahahaizZZZ....

yesterdae didnt get to blog cause the damn blog was down..

work yesterday was totally really super diduper chill..

cause it was like my whole outlet went to war(meaning there was almost nobody)

but the beswt thing was when my manager was impress wif me when i started work really early..

supposed to start at 6 but came at 430 jus for briefing and started work at 530pm..

hahaha..kembang sak aku..tapi skit jek ah..hahaha

hmm..im now in a little dilemma..

she didnt make it wif dat guy cause of some prob..

she still doesnt understnd me cause she still tinks im jus fren..

well i'll tell u sumtink then..i wan to be there wif u whenever u nid me..

i knw ur heart is still wif tt guy..

everyone says dat..

u are trying to be strong but i can jus see in yur eyes tt u are really heartbroken

and i hate to see tt..

and im also angry wif tt guy..u knw..

to tell u the truth,

i jus feel there sumtink not rite bout tt guy..

well..i've let it out already..

ok guys dats all for todae..

signing off

Shahrill aka SHOM JR.

2007-01-09T02:35:00.000-08:00

hahaha..haiz..wat a day.

jus gt bck from the outing..woohoo..ate alot..

ahaha..ketok duet company rabak..

but during the outing..sumtink happen,

i dont wan to write it down cause its too personal..

my apologies to that person..

i didnt mean to make it a big thing..

i was helpless cause they were asking me alot of question..

haiz..hope u understnd..

i dont want us to fight jus cause of this..i'll solve it ok..i promise..

sorry..

haiz..prob after prob..

but i jus learn sumtink from one of my staff..

he said to me that no matter wat there will be problems..

so he said that we shud take it in a positive way and throw away they negative thoughts..

that way,we will learn new thing easier..u hav my respect bro..

haiz..now i really need to tink bout my prob..

it may getting big..but im trying to make small..

belive me when i say i want to make it small..

NVM..i knw i'll figure it out..

aniways..gtg guys

signing off

Shahrill aka SHOM JR.

2007-01-07T17:35:00.000-08:00

this is me:
wanting to moveon but there sumting hampering me,
but at the same time i feel my heart has change,
so i dont knw which want to follow,
my instinct?
or my heart?
i knw her heart is still wif dat guy,
so i'll just keep quiet and wait,
maybe its jus not the rite time,
she is a great gal to be wif,
so really hope to be wif her,
even though i sumtimes do tink of my ex,
but tt will heal in time cause i've been through it already,
so enough of this "emo stuff",
TIME FOR SUM FUN..HAHAHAAH
going for an outing(having supper) later at around 11pm wif the staff of swensen..woohoo!!
yesterday was so fuck up wif that badak,dala aku nga sakit,
de lagi nk carik hal..kurangs btol..haiz..
maybe thats part of the working life..
well my mum is sick,so gtg guys

signing off
Shahrill aka SHOM JR.

2007-01-06T09:10:00.000-08:00

Hmm..this was about a dae on 6 of jan cause i onli blog late,

so it means wat i blog todae is bout yesterdae aite!

hmm,todae was jus another dae..woke up at 11 am cause the dae bfore i was

on the phone wif sara till 2am..

hhaahaha..then around 2pm..i met her again bfore goin to werk

cause we went to the SP career and course fair..

around 3pm,i suggested that we go to werk early..so,off we go..

hahaha..SP is great place even though some might say its boring..but i lovin it..haha

woohoo..great news to those who want to take AEROSPACE ELECTRONICS course..

the cut off point is between 15-16 points..

im gonna take tt course..hopefully..

reach vivo city at around 4pm..so..me and sara jus went to the outlet..

went in early,but i jus chill and took my time to change..hahah..afta tt,ate a little bit of ice cream(thankz sara)

working was ok..si badak..as usual was getting on my nerves so jus heck care..it wasnt until arnd 1030 pm tt sumtink happen..

dont wan to sae wat happen cause its private only bdk swensen jek tau..hahaha

hmm..i tink dats all for todae..till next time

signing off

Shahrill aka SHOM JR.

2007-01-04T07:27:00.000-08:00

I just have no mood to blog,

I don't knw whether to trust her or not,

To belive or not to..

U wont tell me the truth so now..

I really dont knw wat to say to u..

Cause as of rite now..im just scared of beliving in U

People ask me to move on..

YES i will,

but one thing for sure that i'll be always waiting and nothing can change that

signing off

Shahrill aka SHOM JR.

2007-01-03T08:18:00.000-08:00

I HATE MYSELF!!!!
ppl may see me smiling but wat they dont knw is dat deep down i jus hate myself
hate for wat i've done,hate for beliving,hate myself for always suffering inside and not let it out
i'll never tell so wat eva happen it between me,myself and I

i'll keep smiling for ppl..thats wat i do best huh!
so to the person tt i confess,thank u for all u have done..
u have done notink wrng but its onli has been me at fault..
so im very sori if have disturb u or anitink else i've done..
hope u be happy..
and when u nid me..
jus holla me or anyone else u feel comfortable talking too..
cause no matter wat i'll be rite here waiting for u..
for wat eva i said is true..

signing off

Shahrill aka Shom JR.

2007-01-02T06:45:00.000-08:00

i dont knw y..
but i've been observing..
why?
why do the people whom i luv or the people i care..
i have to let go or if not that, i have wait..and its gonna be long time..
sum people say its not worth it,
sum..ask me to be patient..
but seriously..im jus don knw wat to do..
but now i'm here,seeing it,but it really hurts me cause no matter wat,
it keeps running in my mind..
haiz..im hating this and hating wat i did..
im SORRY

2007-01-02T06:08:00.000-08:00

hurhurhur...todae another typical day at werk..but it was kinda weird..cause i became ice cream runner(the person who sends ice cream to guest)hahaha..and i had to climb up to the shelf..to clean up glasses tt were there for a long time..ahhaha..so aper lagi..amek chance la nk mkn gaji..hahaha
buat keje relek2..smpi la kol tiga..it took me around two hours siol!!..hahahaafter..keje chill jek..best sak jad runner..then 1/2 an hour b4 i knockoff..my unlce came..so terpakser la aku layan dorg..hahaha..asek2 klau aku jumper family members aku jek..dorg nk mkn free..aper da..dorg ingt aku cap duit per..
after knockoff..i went to take my prnts at harbourfront..they jus got bck from batam..after visiting my relatives..now at home doing noting except for playing the comp for the nex three hours or so..hahah

well..im still hoping tt she wud belive me...
im lying..all i said to her were really from my heart..haiz..
well..all i have to do now is to leave it up to fate..
and i'll be there for her whenever she needs me..and i mean WHENEVER..

Ook people..tts all for todae..till nex time..signing off

Shahrill aka SHOM JR.

2007-01-01T06:05:00.000-08:00

hmm..its the NEW YEAR everybody..happy new year!!!!
hahahaha..yesterday celebrated it wif al,ryn,and ryn nyer kwn..
well..it was fun..but,,i was f**kin dissapointed as i was expecting some fireworks..
in the end,we were by the bay...talkin cock..hahahaha..

went bck by tooking the last train,around 1:15 am
reach home around 230am or so..
todae workin was all fun,i became the food and ice cream runner..but seriously
im now feeling the tiredness of the working life..

aite..ppl tts all for..if i got noting to do...then i'll post another one..hahahaha

chao!

shahrill

2006-12-30T08:40:00.000-08:00

PPL A NEW BLOGGER IS IN DA HOUSE!

Peace To ALL!!!