5:00 AM

I'm feeling lost now?...

cause todays the day that i feel its the worse day of my life.
it just sucks till it hurts me...
i dont know why...
it is just misery that is setting all time high..
but i just wanna

Throw it away whatever that you are thinking
Forget yesterday and just be free
Cos' We'll make the great escape
And We wont hear a word they say
Cos' They don't know us anyway
And lets just Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just feel like shouting my lungs out.
are u like avoiding or me or something.
i don't know..its just my gut feeling that you are..


thats it.
i'm done here.
bye.
i can't stop thinking bout you.
so yah,
bye everyone
i'll be dead and you'll still not know.

written by:Mr Rill
mood while blogging:frustrated.

4:02 PM

If you are reading this,
this song below has the meaning
of how much u now mean to me.
i hope u understand.


Chris brown-With You
I need ya boo, I gotta see ya boo
And there's hearts all over the world tonite
Said there's hearts all over the world tonite
I need ya boo {Oh}, I gotta see ya boo {Yeah}
And there's hearts all over the world tonite
Said there's hearts all over the world tonite



Hey lil mama... Ooo your a stunner
Hot lil figure, Yes you a winner
And, I'm so glad to be yours...
Your a class all your own and...
Ooo you a cutie, When you talk to me
I swear the whole world stops
Your my sweetheart, and I'm so glad that your mine
You are one of a kind and
You mean to me, What I mean to you
And together baby, there is nothin' we wont do



Cuz if I got you
I don't need money
I don't need cars
Girl your my all.....
And oh

I'm into you, and girl no.. one else but you and
With every kiss and every hug, you make me fall in love
And now I, know I cant be the only one
I bet its hearts all over the world tonite
With the love of there life would feel
What I feel when im

with you, with you, with you, with you, with you
Girl... with you, with you,
with you, with you, with you



Oh Girl
I don't want nobody else
Without you there's no one left and
Be like Jordans on Saturday
I gotta have you and I can not wait now


Hey lil shorty, say you care for me
You know, I care for you
You know, that I'll be true
You know, that I wont lie
You know, that I would try
To be your everything, yeah




Cuz if I got you
I don't need money
I don't need cars
Girl your my all.....{Yeah}
And oooohhhh

I'm into you, and girl noo.. one else but you and
With every kiss and every hug, you make me fall in love
And now I know I cant be the only one
I bet its hearts all over the world tonite
With the love of there life would feel
What I feel when I'm
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you
Ooh.. with you, with you, with you, with you, with you {Yeah}



And I, will never try to deny
That you were my whole life
Cuz if you, Ever let me go
I would die, So I wont front
I dont need another woman
I just need your all or nothing,
Cuz if I got that, Then i'll be straight
Baby your the best part of my dreams



I need ya boo, I gotta see ya boo
And there's hearts all over the world tonite
Said there's hearts all over the world tonite {oooh, yeah}
They need their boo {They need it}, They gotta see their boo {Yeah}
And there's hearts all over the world tonite
Hearts all over the world tonite



Ohh..
I'm into you, and girl noo.. one else but you and
With every kiss and every hug, you make me fall in love
And now I, kno I cant be the only one
I bet its hearts all over the world tonite
With the love of there life would feel
What I feel when I'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you


Girl... with you, with you, with you, with you, with you
Ohh.. with you, with you, with you, with you, with you {with you}
Only with you... with you, with you, with you, with you, with you

6:34 PM

hmm...
i don't know where to start..
its just that alot has been going in my life..
from..school...my volunteer thingy..and finally my private life..
but what hit me the most this time was my private life.
this girl i know.
she is very sweet.
very caring.
and she is a very understanding girl.
even though i've like known her like less than a month.
i feel.........
i know inside me says that i do like her..
but i just feel its wring to tell her..
cos she is in her prime where..she has alot in her life and she has goals to achieve..
what i mean is that she just have alot of things to do and she has her prioraties
im just falling for her more and more,
and i just can't stop thinking bout her.

to her:
hey baby,
i'm falling for you.
and if you have other things in your life,
i'll wait for you.
i'll do anything to make you happy
i'm just so confused..
so i think maybe i'll need to talk it out.

rill,

Labels: Even though You will never grow tall enough i will grow short just for U

2:42 PM

I'm BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hello to u guys who have visited my boring blog...

gosh it's been a very long time since i blog.

oh well,it was really because i was very tied up with events for m volunteer assc and also with my school.
school has been the same but very tough cos of MATH!!! argh!!!...

don't get me wrong...i like math but the workload has been piling on top of my table..

to those finish their o levels good luck for your results.

and im having this module called "Entrepreneurship" and i'm having lots of problem with communicating with my group.And i feel so drained by all this work..

But then there are a group of people who is helping me to relax...

my volunteer group..from 4PM(malay youth literary assc.)

going out with them makes me happy..cos everyone of them has something different about themself.

some recent events that i was in was the Bestari ITE award ceremony,Night Cyling and most recent was Camp Voyage 07'..and the best of all R.O.W.(ramadhan on wheels)

through this events i get to know alot of people...

hopefully insyallah..in the future i'll get to know more people..

speaking bout people...among this people...i found 1 that has become my special one..

she and i really come from two different worlds..hahaha

funny but true,

she come from a religious school and i come from a normal sch...

she lives in pasir ris and i'm from jurong(man how far is that...)

and if i were to list down the other things that are different think this blog spce wouldn't be enough...
ok.

enough talking...here are just some pics from my volunteer group..enjoy..

RILL

5:36 AM

HOLD ON,

she thinks that i told my bro's something and she wants to knw what did i told them

cause she notice something amiss during national day...

haiz..

YES! i did told them something but its just tht i think its not the right time to tell u..

so i'll keep to myself till i think its right to tell u..

i hope u won't get mad with me cause i respect u..and i don't want to distract u with the thing that i'm goin to tell u..

so jus be patient aite..

another reason is because..

i knw u have alot of probs..so i don't want the thing that i wnat to tell u will add more probs to ur life.

aku mahu bilang kamu

tapi enggak boleh karena..

belum tepat masanya untok membilang kamu.

aku harap kamu akan paham akan presaan aku nanti..

if some of u guys don't understand what i'm talking,nevermind..

it was suppose to be like that..

till then guys...

Rill

tetapi sebenarnya...aku amat cinta banget sama kamu... -_-

Labels: HOLD ON

2:50 AM

SCHOOL...urgh...the thought of it sometimes makes me sick..
i'm rite now so confused with the AC current thingy so many formula to remember...
but i still have to catch up some how...
5 more weeks till my exam..
so my theory test not tht bad..
my phase test is so fine tht i can close one eye already..
but the other half my theory i really have to work hard..gosh.
and all this things has made me really sick..(sore throat and flu)

today not goin to work cause i have a basic theory prac and evaluation from 6 to 745pm
and with me this sick...things not gonna be tht easy to take tht evaluation...
but on a lighter note my team won third yesterday in our annual EE dept soccer league for o7'

now my private life..
nothing has been goin much but seriously i feel like telling her abt my feelings for her
she has really no clue abt my feelings for her..
i tried my best to ask her out on a date so tht i could talk to her abt this face to face..
cos i think if i told her through text i wouldnt be tht sincere as for me talking to her face 2 face..
i really hope tht(my heart is pumping so hard rite now while typing this) one i could be with her
cause my feelings for her has change from
jus liking a fren,to loving a fren to loving her more than a fren
so rite now i dont knw what else to do but to just wait till her exams are over and maybe
i'll get to sit down and talk to her..
a clue who she is. (clue: CGSS)
thts enough till then guys

RILL

Labels: I love U.

7:59 PM

have u ever sit down and just think.

and while u were thinking,there's only that one person in your mind.

then after that u feel a tingling feeling in your heart about this person.

u ask yourself alot of question about this person.

And the one main question "Why do i always think about this girl?"

well,thats exactly what i'm feeling rite now.

i knw she's not reading this so thats y i wrote it here.

I've only met her once,tried to meet up again but then had things to do so cant.

well the truth is that i think i'm jus waiting for her and that even though i admit there are some other girls that i knw who are just as gorgeous as she is.

i think she has that something bout her that made me want her.

well, i think i'll just wait for her then.

no matter what happen's.

i'll still be her friend.(even if i went on one knee down)

enough bout tht,

my sch grade as of rite now is a cnfrm B or C grade.

damn it man.

jus cause i didnt attend one lesson to finish up my report.

my CA didnt want to accept my bloody report.

it SUCKS! man i tell u.

nvr mind..

i'll jus have to work harder on my other test and just hope i pass them with flying colours.

ok guys,thats it for now.

till then,

RIll

Labels: Crazy and Funny thoughts ANd Feelings running through my mind and heart